What makes you perfect

Hello again,

It's been a while, for a change.
But we have over 10 000 hits. 10 200 something to be more precise.
And to celebrate I've got a special topic.

"Nobody is perfect. Neither am I"

What makes one perfect? Being beautiful? Being smart? Being strong? Being fast? Being all of that? Does that makes you perfect?

Honestly... I don't think so.
Being perfect to me implies being trustworthy, but also to trust the ones that care for you, to be nice, honest, loyal and respectful to other people, to have yourself in check, but also being able to admit when it's over your head. Never give up, and accept help when it's needed.

I guess it's in the little things.

Maybe you guys can tell me wether I'm forgetting thing.
Seems to happen a lot lately... the forgetting part.
The doctor says it's because I'm over-stressed... yay.

Anyways... for those who have fall break this week (not me, I'm at my internship)... have fun!

xoxo

second chances and trust issues

Hi guys.

I know I promised I'd shut up about this topic... but it's just really hard.
But on the other side, this one isn't about Jamie. This time around it's for a friend.
One of my very best friends is in trouble. He's not telling me why, but I can just imagine why it would be...

The fray sings 'never  say never', Stellar Kart is a band of 'second chances'.

No-one hurts you more that the one you love.
And then you have to make the discision.
Ending it or giving a second chance.

If Jamie would be asking a second chance, I really wouldn't know what to say.
I'd really want to say yes, but would I be able to trust him again?
Would I be able to believe what he says?

I can't tell you the answer.
I guess it depends on what happens.

Maybe you guys can give me your answer...

To Sky.
Just remember you're not alone.

wrath of a bullying victim

Hey peeps,

heavy subject today.
Yes, I believe the tide has turned.
Maybe not... but at least I'm going to try to keep my mouth shut about the 'heartbroken bullshit'.

So today: bullying.

The last few day the media-air has been buzzing with that topic.
Why? Someone got bullied. Her bullies filmed the whole charade and the video ended up on facebook.

The girl who did the bullying got suspended from school.
But that's not all. What started as a "stop bullying"-campaign is now a total hate-campaign against the 'convict'.

Someone I know made the analogy with KONY, and how it probably won't have much effect on the actual bullying in the future.

I thing he has a point. How are we going to help the victims with online hate-campaigns?
I'm not picking the bully's side, but when we react like that, with hate, than what makes us any better than that bully we try so hard to undermine?

I believe that if we really want to do something about it, we should act for real, stand up for those who can't. Just saying we hate the bully isn't going to do any good. If it means anything i think it's only making things worse...

If I was a bully and the one I harassed did something like that, starting a national hatred against me, I'd be furious and I'd want to make them pay. Not that I am a bully, not even close!

So that's my point of view. What's yours?

xoxo

am I that bad?

Is it so wrong to want  a happily ever after?
Is it wrong to trust people so easily that they're able to break your heart as soon as they even think about it?
Is it wrong to love someone even if they crushed your heart.
Am I that bad that people tend to tell me I'm more than enough for them but then stab me in the back and leave me for someone else?
Is it that bad to want something like the couples in the movies?
It's not like their stories are all fake... are they?
True love, trust, loyaly, honesty.... I don't belieeve it's all fantasy.
But I have to admit... it gets awfully hard to keep believing that there actually exist people with the same values I have and actually like me.

xoxo

Advice needed

Hey guys,

I think I'm a bit lost.
Remember Jamie?
The boy I got all nervous and happy about.
We were a couple for exactly six months.
And now it seem I just can't get him out of my system.
My mom told me to look for someone else, one of my best friends told me just to forget about him.

Easyer said than done...

Anyone with a better idea?

Btw... sorry for the depressed mood lately....
If it's bothering you please tell me.

Love you all

Way too long

hya peeps,

I know it's been a while, but my internship takes most of my time now.
53 days gone, 11 to go. Most of that time I'm filling with scientific research. It's pretty interesting, but really hard when you haven't done anything like that in like... ever.

By the way... it's raining. Again.I actually don't mind it raining... I like walking in the rain. It clears your head when your thinking about doing stupid stuff like... I don't know... stupid stuff.
But a little bit of sunshine should be nice to get a bit of a tan while studying.

Maybe I should get the positive things drained out by the rain in stead... When I thinking positive lately it's making me fantasise about stuff that could never happen, at least not again... and that's keeping me down lately. I even started to doubt myself and my capacities....

Anyone who's got any ideas to get myself up again?


oh... almost forgot to tell you... I'm going to try to get a new piece on the story sometime soon!


you now what... forget about what I said...
I'm not going to be all depressed...

I've got to BE POSITIVE

Yes I'll still be crying once in a while, that's normal!!!

But I'm not going to let him bring me down.

I just need to get on with my life.

At least then he'll see what he's lost.

not myself lately

Sorry guys... haven't been myself for a couple of weeks.
Not sure I am back on track either.
Getting tired of acting like nothing is wrong.
The good thing is... people actually seem to believe my act.


some of my own writing...

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Warrior princess going down

Where did I go wrong
“cause faith has turned her back on me

I’m a soldier
in a war I cannot win
mind and heart, my enemies

The shot’s still ringing in my ears
when the bullet turns around

Pieces of me
shattered across  the concrete
joining the army of lost souls

Please give me the strength
to carry on
‘cause I’m still losing this war

Jay D.
14-03-2012

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See you all later.