On a road that's dark and long
On my way, but I'm fearful that I could be lost
That the path I have chosen might be wrong
When will it be clear that I made the right choice
When can I be sure that I know my own voice
I dream of a day when I'm free from doubt
...
I've been told that we learn from our mistakes
But I just don't know how many mistakes it takes"
And that's the hardest thing. We'll learn from our mistakes... but what about the things that are lost because of these mistakes we've made.
We say 'sorry' when it happens.
But 'sorry' can't save a heart when it breaks and scatters.
I think I made a mistake when I've put "fear is only in our minds" online.
A mistake that pushed the replay button of my past.
It's been almost two years. Same kind of mistake, only with someone different.
I'm afraid the boy that was the subject of that blog knows it's all about him.
No, I'm not afraid of him knowing it, wrong way of putting it. The only thing I'm afraid of is his reaction. Still not right... I guess I'm afraid that the past is repeating itself and he's just going to ignore me. So I believe I'm just afraid of getting no reaction at all anymore.
And I don't know how to put it right.
If I walk out now, there's no going back.
I should really tell him myself. I think...
Just tell him how I feel.
Like that's going to make a difference.
If he already knows and he's ignoring me...
It won't change a thing.
I'm not even sure I'll find the right words...
but I have to try...
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