All I want for Christmas

It's been a while again. I'm sorry for that.
But it's been quite hectic these days. Last classes, Finishing up the papers I had to hand in. And since I'm in college, the real studying startend yesterday afternoon. Why studying during Christmas an New Year, you ask? That's because my exams are in January. I'm actually quite optimistic for this semester.

Going to keep it reel short because I just heard the door bell ring. The family arrived to celebrate Christmas.

Just stopped by to wish you all a Merry Christmas and a happy New Year. And to all of the readers who have exams coming up, just likee me: good luck.
I wish you all the best of 2011.

My wish for 2011: hearts on fire and a boy with a red ribbons (that's an insider :p) on the doorstep of every lonely girl and vica versa. Actually it's more of a Christams wish, but hey... you know what I mean.


Olive you!!!

a new vision and stubborn nightmares

hya people,

I've got a new vision on life, to quote a friend of mine.
I've got a new pair of glasses. Appearently my old ones were way to strong.
So... better vision: check.
Sleeping better: check. Or at least getting to sleep is going better. Sleeping all through the night... not so much. I'm having these nightmares lately...
Every night all week long the same nightmare and it's really freaking me out.

It start out with me getting a letter that tells me Alex died. You can guess... I'm totally upset.
Then the scene changes. I'm at a party and I'm booked to perform on stage. Brooke, Jake and Mia are there too to support me. I already told them about the letter and so long. And then Alex enters. Of course I'm relieved as hell. I run in to him, give him a hug and tell him how glad I am he's still alive. He asks what's going on and I show him the letter that was sitting in my pockets (obviously). He says there's probably someone trying to pull a really nasty trick on me. And it's all happy ending.
Then it starts all over. But in stead of asking what's wrong he looks at me like I'm crazy and then he just pushes me away.

Then I wake up with a racing heart beat.
Like I said: it's really freaking me out.

I guess I should better get back to work. I've got an evaluation-thing next week and a site that has to be finished next Tuesday/Friday. Still lots of work to do...

Olive you guys.

They say we learn from our mistakes

"On my way, though I don't know where I'm going
On a road that's dark and long
On my way, but I'm fearful that I could be lost
That the path I have chosen might be wrong

When will it be clear that I made the right choice
When can I be sure that I know my own voice
I dream of a day when I'm free from doubt
...
I've been told that we learn from our mistakes
But I just don't know how many mistakes it takes"

And that's the hardest thing. We'll learn from our mistakes... but what about the things that are lost because of these mistakes we've made.

We say 'sorry' when it happens.
But 'sorry' can't save a heart when it breaks and scatters.

I think I made a mistake when I've put "fear is only in our minds" online.
A mistake that pushed the replay button of my past.
It's been almost two years. Same kind of mistake, only with someone different.

I'm afraid the boy that was the subject of that blog knows it's all about him.
No, I'm not afraid of him knowing it, wrong way of putting it. The only thing I'm afraid of is his reaction. Still not right... I guess I'm afraid that the past is repeating itself and he's just going to ignore me. So I believe I'm just afraid of getting no reaction at all anymore.

And I don't know how to put it right.

If I walk out now, there's no going back.
I should really tell him myself. I think...
Just tell him how I feel.
Like that's going to make a difference.
If he already knows and he's ignoring me...
It won't change a thing.
I'm not even sure I'll find the right words...
but I have to try...

Romeo x Juliet

Just discovered a awesome anime series. It's an adaptation of 'Romeo and Juliet', the tragic love story of Shakespeare. I'm a major anime lover. Both watching and drwing. No I'm not drawing my own anime, just drawing existing anime figures with the originals on my desktop.

But how did I find it? I was looking trough everything I found on 'Romeo and Juliet' because Alex is playing in the piece, the role of Sardini. But that name is nowhere to be found. I clicked on the link of the anime series sort of by accident. I started to watch and I truly loved it.
For the ones that stand their grounds as protectors of the original story. Put down your principals because this is truly a masterpiece.


A young girl, Juliet, is the only member of her family to escape the massacre of the Capulet family at the hands of Leontes Montague. Fourteen years later, Lord Montague rules the land of Neo-Verona with an iron-fist as Juliet helps the common folk in a Robin Hood-like fashion, and Romeo Montague protests his father's cruelty. Juliet and Romeo meet by coincidence at the Rose Ball and fall in love at first sight. However, when Juliet turns sixteen and learns the truth of her past that has been hidden from her for fourteen years, her love becomes conflicted between revolution and devotion.

Romeo and Juliet face many challenges and adventures together which strengthen their love. Juliet resumes her role as The Red Whirlwind to start a revolution against Prince Montague. Meanwhile, Romeo has been banished and sent to work in a mine. He frees the criminal miners and begins to start a new village with them. He then returns to Neo Verona to face off Prince Montague.

Tybalt, Juliet accompanied by Francisco, Curio, and the rest of her force, and Romeo storm Prince Montague's chambers. They all wish to arrest him but are stopped by an insane Mercutio who stabs Prince Montague in the back with a poisonous blade.

After the village celebrates Juliet goes away to sacrifice herself to Escalus, which had been keeping Neo Verona as it was until the rule of Montague corrupted it. Romeo tries to stop her but Ophelia captures her. After a small battle between Ophelia and Francisco, Curio, and Tybalt, Romeo breaks through Escalus to free Juliet. He succeeds but Ophelia kills him. The Earth continues to shake and Juliet stays with Romeo. She says all will be well, and forces the others to leave her. The others fly away on their dragon steeds. Juliet decides to become the Escalus Tree and perishes to save Neo Verona, but she and Romeo are united forever in what may loosely be called a form of heaven shown in the last scene of the final episode.

Neo Verona is moved to become an island paradise where the surviving characters live happily ever after.

This is the summary I found on wikipedia.
They say you shouldn't just believe all that's on wikipedia, but screw them, this one's correct for once. Plus it's the best short summery I found.

Juliet: O Romeo, Romeo, wherefore art thou Romeo? 

Deny thy father and refuse thy name, or if thou wilt not, 

be but sworn my love, and I'll no longer be a Capulet.  

Romeo: Shall I hear more, or shall I speak at this?
Juliet: 'Tis but thy name that is my enemy, 

thou art thyself though not a Montague. What is Montague? 

It is nor hand, nor foot, nor arm, nor face, nor any other part belonging to a man. 

Oh, what's in a name? 

That which we call a rose by any other word would smell as sweet; 

so Romeo would, were he not Romeo called,

retain that dear perfection to which he owes without that title. Romeo, doff thy name! 

And for thy name, which is no part of thee, take all myself. 

Also, I'm looking for a site where I can dowload the subbed or dubbed series. Heath had a site he said... I guess I should ask him again to send trough the link.

By the way, the flower on the first picture is an Iris. Just so you know. It's quite an important flower is the anime, and I've become quite fond of it.

A glooming peace this morning with it brings. 

The sun for sorrow will not show his head. 

Go hence and have more talk of these sad things. 

Some shall be pardoned, and some punished. 

For never was a story of more woe than this of Juliet and her Romeo.