The next quote should make sense...
Monday, November 29, 2010
before the misunderstanding starts
Yesterday I asked the people that know about who I was talking about to keep their mouths shut about it... maybe I should clear some things out before someone misunderstands. It's not I'm not grateful. If you think that's just it you're not even close.
The next quote should make sense...
The next quote should make sense...
"If you love someone, let them
Sunday, November 28, 2010
fear is only in our minds
"fear is only in our minds"
it's a line from 'sweet sacrafice' by evanescence.
And it's so true.
I myself have so many things I would like to say to some people, but my mind keeps me from actually telling it. And I guess I'm not the only one with that problem.
It would be so much easyer when heart and mind would act the same.
For instance, when you love someone, your heart is dying to tell that one how you feel. But then your mind interferes. "No, you can't tell. What if it end up the same as in the past, What if he (or she for the boys - and other-minded girls) doesn't like you that way. What if there is someone else on their mind. What if...."
"You'll never gonna be alone, from this moment on.
See you next time.
it's a line from 'sweet sacrafice' by evanescence.
And it's so true.
I myself have so many things I would like to say to some people, but my mind keeps me from actually telling it. And I guess I'm not the only one with that problem.
It would be so much easyer when heart and mind would act the same.
For instance, when you love someone, your heart is dying to tell that one how you feel. But then your mind interferes. "No, you can't tell. What if it end up the same as in the past, What if he (or she for the boys - and other-minded girls) doesn't like you that way. What if there is someone else on their mind. What if...."
So many things that keep us from speaking out loud.
So many times I want to let that woice within out: "go for it, all the way", but every time the other voice, the one in my head, says "stop, that's not smart, what if...".
I've got a really good 'what if' for everyone...
What if... tomorrow never comes? What if today was our last day and tomorrow is too late? Would I be able to leave the past behind and just show you how I feel? Would I be able to show the rest of the world who I really am?
I guess the best advice from me to you all is just live every day like it's your last, don't regret or be afraid to be yourself and show how you feel.
I'm going to be the idiot in this show, because probably I wont even take my own advice. I never do. Stupid me, I know. But maybe it van help you guys.
"You'll never gonna be alone, from this moment on.
If you ever feel like letting go, I wont let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you till the hurt is gone."
For the one this is meant to be: you probably wont know it's you.
And for the ones that do know: keep your mouth shut. It's up to him an I.
See you next time.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Hectic days, quiet moments and in between
Okay... It has been a couple of days.
Hectic here. Trying to get to college, classes, trying to get back home, assignments and sleeping. Eating fits in between all these. And about the sleeping... I'm trying at least.
The medication ain't working again. Shocking!
I used to ask myself 'why me?', but I realised pitying doesn't make any difference. It only gets me feeling down. So I'm being the happy person I am.
So somewhere in between the hectic stuff I ban it all out. Sound, images, touch, everything. And then I listen to that inner voice, the one that comes from my heart. I listen to what it says. What my dreams were when I was a couple of years younger, which ones I realised already, which ones I had to change, which ones I had to give up... but most of all I listen to what my heart says I have, not my mind, but my heart. The friends I have, my family, the fact I can do what I want, I'm good enough to study, good enough to live a free and rich life. The love I get from all of the people I know and the love I'll get from that special one that may come one day... Dreaming about being with that one. The little stuff, a hug, holding hands, walking on the beach, but what I think is the most important thing is just the being together and the knowing you have a special someone who's there for you whatever happens.
I'm probably being boring as hell for you guys.
Anyway, I believe Alex had an audition today. It one for 'Romeo and Julliet". One of my favourite plays. I hope he's in. Alex, one more time, this time it's black on white, sealed on the world wide web, I've got my fingers crossed for you.
But like I said: it's a hectic time. Still busy. So I'm going to let you enjoy the rest of your night.
Olive you!!!
Hectic here. Trying to get to college, classes, trying to get back home, assignments and sleeping. Eating fits in between all these. And about the sleeping... I'm trying at least.
The medication ain't working again. Shocking!
I used to ask myself 'why me?', but I realised pitying doesn't make any difference. It only gets me feeling down. So I'm being the happy person I am.
So somewhere in between the hectic stuff I ban it all out. Sound, images, touch, everything. And then I listen to that inner voice, the one that comes from my heart. I listen to what it says. What my dreams were when I was a couple of years younger, which ones I realised already, which ones I had to change, which ones I had to give up... but most of all I listen to what my heart says I have, not my mind, but my heart. The friends I have, my family, the fact I can do what I want, I'm good enough to study, good enough to live a free and rich life. The love I get from all of the people I know and the love I'll get from that special one that may come one day... Dreaming about being with that one. The little stuff, a hug, holding hands, walking on the beach, but what I think is the most important thing is just the being together and the knowing you have a special someone who's there for you whatever happens.
I'm probably being boring as hell for you guys.
Anyway, I believe Alex had an audition today. It one for 'Romeo and Julliet". One of my favourite plays. I hope he's in. Alex, one more time, this time it's black on white, sealed on the world wide web, I've got my fingers crossed for you.
But like I said: it's a hectic time. Still busy. So I'm going to let you enjoy the rest of your night.
Olive you!!!
Saturday, November 20, 2010
going out, movies and auditions
hey guys, it's Saturday!
I had a awesome night with some of my classmates yesterday.
We went bowling. First game: almost won. The last two throws Veronica took my first place. Second and third game became worse and worse. But it was fun. Heath even showed me some tricks to have better control over my bowling ball. The lemon cake I made was a success. And so was the evening in my opinion.
Tonight going out as well. This time Mia and Mike are joining me.
Just going for a drink and some catching up. But that's fun too.
You know Mia already. She's one of my bff's. The one who showed me #Love Is Louder. And Mike is one of my colleagues at the supermarket and Mia's cousin.
It's a busy weekend, because I'm not at home Sunday evening too. My cousin Dawn is accompanying me to the movies. We're going to see the seventh Harry Potter movie.
Talking about movies. Four movies I really want to add to my collection some day:
- Avatar
- Keith
- The Yellow Handkerchief
- The Last Song
Why? Watch the movies and you'll see for yourself.
Looking for a good book also... But I don't know which one...
We've got going out and movies.... Coming up next: music.
I reconnected with one of my favourite song by looking for an instrumental song for Alex's audition.
It's called "Olive You". (Performance by Kimmi Smiles and Dave Days)
The video: http://www.youtube.com/user/davedays?feature=chclk#p/u/6/rtIfld84Ydw
Dave: http://www.youtube.com/user/davedays?feature=chclk
Kimmi: http://www.youtube.com/kimmitalks
They are amazing!!!
Another song that popped into my mind because of the quest of the audition song was "Someone to say hi to" (K's Choice / Sarah Bettens). Just like "Olive You" one of my favourites. But I couldn't find an instrumental version. Too bad.
The video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cz5_QjcD23U&feature=related
I'm quite a big fan of all of her songs, solo as well as with her band K's Choice.
Still Alex if you're reading this... I'd love to hear you sing it :).
Both of these songs actually...
Never mind. My crazy thoughts are taking over.
I guess I should head back to my homework... still lots of assignments to do.
See you next time!
I had a awesome night with some of my classmates yesterday.
We went bowling. First game: almost won. The last two throws Veronica took my first place. Second and third game became worse and worse. But it was fun. Heath even showed me some tricks to have better control over my bowling ball. The lemon cake I made was a success. And so was the evening in my opinion.
Tonight going out as well. This time Mia and Mike are joining me.
Just going for a drink and some catching up. But that's fun too.
You know Mia already. She's one of my bff's. The one who showed me #Love Is Louder. And Mike is one of my colleagues at the supermarket and Mia's cousin.
It's a busy weekend, because I'm not at home Sunday evening too. My cousin Dawn is accompanying me to the movies. We're going to see the seventh Harry Potter movie.
Talking about movies. Four movies I really want to add to my collection some day:
- Avatar
- Keith
- The Yellow Handkerchief
- The Last Song
Why? Watch the movies and you'll see for yourself.
Looking for a good book also... But I don't know which one...
We've got going out and movies.... Coming up next: music.
I reconnected with one of my favourite song by looking for an instrumental song for Alex's audition.
It's called "Olive You". (Performance by Kimmi Smiles and Dave Days)
The video: http://www.youtube.com/user/davedays?feature=chclk#p/u/6/rtIfld84Ydw
Dave: http://www.youtube.com/user/davedays?feature=chclk
Kimmi: http://www.youtube.com/kimmitalks
They are amazing!!!
Another song that popped into my mind because of the quest of the audition song was "Someone to say hi to" (K's Choice / Sarah Bettens). Just like "Olive You" one of my favourites. But I couldn't find an instrumental version. Too bad.
The video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cz5_QjcD23U&feature=related
I'm quite a big fan of all of her songs, solo as well as with her band K's Choice.
Still Alex if you're reading this... I'd love to hear you sing it :).
Both of these songs actually...
Never mind. My crazy thoughts are taking over.
I guess I should head back to my homework... still lots of assignments to do.
See you next time!
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Startin a revolution from my bed
Just found out I got a reaction on the #Love Is Louder blog, written by Brooke, one of my super bff's. It says: "be who you want to be, nobody's perfect (what's perfect by the way?) judging about people who aren't straight is just wasting precious time of your life.
And Brooke is right. It's wasting time.
Plus. What's perfect indeed? But more important... Who decides what is perfect and what not. Why he (or she) and why not other people with other visions, other experiences, other lives? Who decides whether someone can be accepted or not? The most popular people of the school? The hottest girl in the office? Miss Prom Queen? The politicians? What do they know more about all those things than we do? Is it because they seem to be prettier, or more famous. Is it because they seem to outsmart the rest of us? Are they actually smarter?? Don’t think so. It’s not like they have access to the source of all wisdom. Neither do we, but that’s just it. They don’t have more rights to say what is ‘perfect’ or ‘normal’ and what’s not.
Let’s start a revolution. A revolution against all that hypocrisy.
I’m starting one from my red bedroom.
“Pretty or powerful people and people with connections know more.”
Yeah right.
For the record I’m not blaming anyone. Only the ones that think they can decide about this kind of things.
Who am I kidding? Nothing is going to change. We can’t do a thing to those hypocrites.
Not a thing. And who’s going to be the victim? The smaller people…
And Brooke is right. It's wasting time.
Plus. What's perfect indeed? But more important... Who decides what is perfect and what not. Why he (or she) and why not other people with other visions, other experiences, other lives? Who decides whether someone can be accepted or not? The most popular people of the school? The hottest girl in the office? Miss Prom Queen? The politicians? What do they know more about all those things than we do? Is it because they seem to be prettier, or more famous. Is it because they seem to outsmart the rest of us? Are they actually smarter?? Don’t think so. It’s not like they have access to the source of all wisdom. Neither do we, but that’s just it. They don’t have more rights to say what is ‘perfect’ or ‘normal’ and what’s not.
Let’s start a revolution. A revolution against all that hypocrisy.
I’m starting one from my red bedroom.
“Pretty or powerful people and people with connections know more.”
Yeah right.
For the record I’m not blaming anyone. Only the ones that think they can decide about this kind of things.
Who am I kidding? Nothing is going to change. We can’t do a thing to those hypocrites.
Not a thing. And who’s going to be the victim? The smaller people…
Sunday, November 14, 2010
my birthday
As far as I thought my birthday couldn't get any worse than last year, I was wrong. It can get even more boring. I've been all alone almost all afternoon, making homework. It's sad to 'celebrate' my nineteenth like that, but yeah... Saying I tried to get some friends together. But even that failed. Like I presumed, I'll probably have to cancel it. It's going to be a one-on-one with Mia next weekend. Maybe her cousin will join us. Don't know it for sure. Don't know anything for sure anymore. Sorry guys, I'm feeling a bit down since yesterday afternoon and I can't get the feeling out of my system.
Going to be dorky tonight. Playing facebook games and watching movies with my parent.
Olive you guys.
Going to be dorky tonight. Playing facebook games and watching movies with my parent.
Olive you guys.
Friday, November 12, 2010
#Love Is Louder
Tonight is going to be special…Thanks to Mia, one of my bff’s, I got in touch with something great. An awesome campaign called ‘Love Is Louder’. Tonight, a big part of this blog is going to be about ‘Love Is Louder’ and what the whole thing means to me.
‘Love Is Louder’ is a movement that is apparently started by Brittany Snow, an actress well kn own for playing in ‘John Tucker Must Die’ and ‘Hairspray’.Maybe some of you have heard about the multiple suicide thing.
In September a lot of young people, our age, have committed suicide because of an increased bullying of non-straight people. Because of that Brittany started out with LIL.
In September a lot of young people, our age, have committed suicide because of an increased bullying of non-straight people. Because of that Brittany started out with LIL.
I myself think it’s sick to bully people because of who they love. I know several gay, lesbian and bisexual people, and some of them are a lot nicer and cooler than a ton of other I know.
Something to think about for all the straight people who read this: how would you feel when gay was ‘normal’ and being straight wasn’t, and you’re being shut out. Just like gay people are shot out right now. Not that there really is a ‘normal’. Who decides what is ‘normal’ actually???
For example: I really like to walk in the rain as long as it not to cold. People say I’m not normal either. But for the rest they leave me live my life like I want to. My point is that I think no kind of people is better than the other kind. We’re all the same, but sometime we have other beliefs or we love another kind of people than most other of our sex. Still that’s no reason to exclude anyone, or treat them differently.
‘Love Is Louder’ than hate, Love Is Louder than music, coming from me that means a lot, but most of all… ‘Love Is Louder’ than anything.
Love is the most important thing in the wide world.
You just have to find the right person to share yours with.
But love is also the part where you take the others for what they are, and accept them.
Love is the most important thing in the wide world.
You just have to find the right person to share yours with.
But love is also the part where you take the others for what they are, and accept them.
I’ve got a request to all of you. You’ve seen the picture of Britanny an myself, now I’d like you to make a photo or a drawing with the ‘#love is louder sign’. If you take a picture: it’s not obligated to write it on your hand! Just like you see on my (miserable) picture you can write it on your arm, fingers, chest or whatever. As long as you show you’re in. And mail me the picture to candy.1991@live.be .
No, that’s not my personal e-mail address. It’s just for these pictures.
Yes, the pictures will be put online. No, I won’t keep your e-mail address unless you want me to. And if you want me to put a name with the picture add it to your mail.
This was a blog dedicated to ‘Love Is Louder’, and a little bit tot you too Mia. I hope you’re glad.
And to all of you. I hope you’ve got anything out of it. If you want to check the whole story of ‘Love Is Louder’ the site is the next one. http://www.mtv.com/news/articles/1649201/20101001/story.jhtml
And to all of you. I hope you’ve got anything out of it. If you want to check the whole story of ‘Love Is Louder’ the site is the next one. http://www.mtv.com/news/articles/1649201/20101001/story.jhtml
Olive you guys.
Thursday, November 11, 2010
later than suspected
Hya people,
it's a day later than suspected, I know, but I've been sick for two days and I'm finally getting better now. I had to skip one of my classes and chopir practice. Yes, I'm choir material. One of the sopranos, for anyone who might want to know.
First of all, I want to thank you all for reading my trange thaughts. We officially reached 145 readers for 8 blog entries. 141 are from Belgium, obvious, 3 from Germany, 3 from th USA, 1 from Spain and even 1 from Maleisia. Can you believe it? I'm even getting to the other side of the world.
Second: totally counting down for the 14th. My birthday of course.
I'm think I'm not quite sure why I'm so excited... not really that special, but still.
I even had postpone my little get-together with my friends. I'll probably even have to cancel it... Totally not funny. Can't even get 5 or 6 of my friends together for an hour or so. Last year was a disaster, just guessing it's gonna be the same this year.I know, I know. Nobody's fault. I'ts hard when we're all in different schools and cities. But still, not cool.
Going to finish up. Still being a bit fuzzy. So, I'm going head to my bed early.
See you next time. Maybe that will be tomorrow, maybe the day after.
it's a day later than suspected, I know, but I've been sick for two days and I'm finally getting better now. I had to skip one of my classes and chopir practice. Yes, I'm choir material. One of the sopranos, for anyone who might want to know.
First of all, I want to thank you all for reading my trange thaughts. We officially reached 145 readers for 8 blog entries. 141 are from Belgium, obvious, 3 from Germany, 3 from th USA, 1 from Spain and even 1 from Maleisia. Can you believe it? I'm even getting to the other side of the world.
Second: totally counting down for the 14th. My birthday of course.
I'm think I'm not quite sure why I'm so excited... not really that special, but still.
I even had postpone my little get-together with my friends. I'll probably even have to cancel it... Totally not funny. Can't even get 5 or 6 of my friends together for an hour or so. Last year was a disaster, just guessing it's gonna be the same this year.I know, I know. Nobody's fault. I'ts hard when we're all in different schools and cities. But still, not cool.
Going to finish up. Still being a bit fuzzy. So, I'm going head to my bed early.
See you next time. Maybe that will be tomorrow, maybe the day after.
Sunday, November 07, 2010
Ellie's late night show
Welcome to Ellie's late night show people. We're starting out a bit late tonight, but no worries. The quality remains the same.
Today brought a pre-birthday 'party' with my dad's side of the family. Not much happened but at least it was some great food. Banana split- cake and Indonesian food. (That what we call Chinese food normally, but apparently it's actually Indonesian stuff) Totally yummie.
I have to run this meeting tomorrow. My group consists of 16 people and a supervisor and our theme is diabetics. We need to set up a whole project around it for 6 to 12-year-olds. That’s not that simple
Today brought a pre-birthday 'party' with my dad's side of the family. Not much happened but at least it was some great food. Banana split- cake and Indonesian food. (That what we call Chinese food normally, but apparently it's actually Indonesian stuff) Totally yummie.
I have to run this meeting tomorrow. My group consists of 16 people and a supervisor and our theme is diabetics. We need to set up a whole project around it for 6 to 12-year-olds. That’s not that simple
I’m also really looking forward to the 14th of November, my actual birthday. I’m going out with some friends, nothing special, just having a few drinks and maybe there will be some bowling. Like I told: nothing special. But it’s more than enough for me. Just the part where I have them with me and I’m not alone. Even if it would be watching a movie with just one of them, I’d already have a great night. And yes I actually meant that. There are some preferences about who that one should be, but it really could be each one of them.
Going to end up already. Really sorry.
I just want to be all clear in the head tomorrow for that meeting.
I just want to be all clear in the head tomorrow for that meeting.
Oh by the way, next blog entry probably won’t be till Wednesday or so.
And I noticed there were a few vocabulary errors in my previous blogs, so I took care of that too.
And I noticed there were a few vocabulary errors in my previous blogs, so I took care of that too.
Olive you guys!
Saturday, November 06, 2010
Shorty today
hya guys,
It's going to be a short one today. Really tired. Don't know why.
Just want to catch a movie. Still on my own, so still looking for someone to shill with.
Drop by if you're in for a quiet night with me...
I was in for the booze again. I normally had to work from 13.00 to 16.00 but it turned out to be 17.30 when I left the store. I'm actually glad I'm still studying and that I don't have to do that all the time.
Guess I'm going to watch the second part of 'Hannibal rising' and after that I'm going to look if have any cheesy romantic movies lying around.
See you later .
It's going to be a short one today. Really tired. Don't know why.
Just want to catch a movie. Still on my own, so still looking for someone to shill with.
Drop by if you're in for a quiet night with me...
I was in for the booze again. I normally had to work from 13.00 to 16.00 but it turned out to be 17.30 when I left the store. I'm actually glad I'm still studying and that I don't have to do that all the time.
Guess I'm going to watch the second part of 'Hannibal rising' and after that I'm going to look if have any cheesy romantic movies lying around.
See you later .
Friday, November 05, 2010
Method acting totally rocks
I've got a new hobby guys! Method acting. Tried to be an ice cube today.
I've been working in the freezers all day. Playing an ice cube is fun. Just act like you're melting. Haha. Being an ice cube isn't as funny. Got a red nose... No, not from drinking. The booze was yesterday, remember?
Anyway, I'm trying to find out what I can do tomorrow night. I'm totally home alone. My parents are going out for the night and my sister is going to a party. And I have no clue about what I'm going to do. Any ideas. If your idea was being a couch potato: scratch it. I want to do something interesting.
Anyone of my real life friends in for keeping me company? Let me know.
Guess what's on tv right now...
"Send it on" the song made by half of the Disney crew.
Love that song.
About songs by the way...
There are four songs I think are worthy to be mentioned here.
First: "Obvious" by Hey Monday. My number one favourite song. link
If that song was out on vinyl, I think you would be hearing cracks all the time just because I'm like playing it 24/7. link
My second is "Just the way you are" by Bruno Mars. It's a song I think every boy should have to play for his girl.
But of course, only if he really means it.
And the third is "paperweight" by Shuyler Fisk and Joshua Radin. link
It's one of the 'dear John' soundtracks.
And number four is the song I'd like to dance my first slow dance on.
It's called "May I" and it's performed by Trading Yesterday. link
And yes, you've read well. I have never danced a slow.
Still waiting for that one guy who asks me out to dance I guess.
Just wondering...
Would it be possible to rent a company. Not the building or something like that, but actually saying "he is some money, I'd like to be the boss of this company for a year or so."
I'm joking. I know you can't do that. Just following the weird path my brain goes sometimes.
Happens all the time.
Promised you guys I'd make it up to you for me being so short yesterday.
So this was it.
See you next time.
I've been working in the freezers all day. Playing an ice cube is fun. Just act like you're melting. Haha. Being an ice cube isn't as funny. Got a red nose... No, not from drinking. The booze was yesterday, remember?
Anyway, I'm trying to find out what I can do tomorrow night. I'm totally home alone. My parents are going out for the night and my sister is going to a party. And I have no clue about what I'm going to do. Any ideas. If your idea was being a couch potato: scratch it. I want to do something interesting.
Anyone of my real life friends in for keeping me company? Let me know.
Guess what's on tv right now...
"Send it on" the song made by half of the Disney crew.
Love that song.
About songs by the way...
There are four songs I think are worthy to be mentioned here.
First: "Obvious" by Hey Monday. My number one favourite song. link
If that song was out on vinyl, I think you would be hearing cracks all the time just because I'm like playing it 24/7. link
My second is "Just the way you are" by Bruno Mars. It's a song I think every boy should have to play for his girl.
But of course, only if he really means it.
And the third is "paperweight" by Shuyler Fisk and Joshua Radin. link
It's one of the 'dear John' soundtracks.
And number four is the song I'd like to dance my first slow dance on.
It's called "May I" and it's performed by Trading Yesterday. link
And yes, you've read well. I have never danced a slow.
Still waiting for that one guy who asks me out to dance I guess.
Just wondering...
Would it be possible to rent a company. Not the building or something like that, but actually saying "he is some money, I'd like to be the boss of this company for a year or so."
I'm joking. I know you can't do that. Just following the weird path my brain goes sometimes.
Happens all the time.
Promised you guys I'd make it up to you for me being so short yesterday.
So this was it.
See you next time.
Thursday, November 04, 2010
hectic day
I'm totally wacked. The toughest day I've had this week. This morning was easy. But this afternoon!
I've been carrying around ^pallets of booze, water and milk. Sounds easier than it is. Trust me. Not easy at all. Maybe 'easy' is not exactly the right word for it, but you know what I mean.
Hya by the way.
still haven't got any responses. even with all my really subtle mentioning.
Whatever. Still glad you're reading my blog.
Watching another movie. Not a horror this time. Sort of a romantic detective. "Nancy Drew". The Version with Emma Roberts. Nice story, Quite stereotypic although. But it's not the kind of movie I'd go watch with my boyfriend, if I would have one anyway.
Sorry guys, but I'm already going to end here. I'm exhausted.
Tomorrow I'll make it up to you.
Byez
I've been carrying around ^pallets of booze, water and milk. Sounds easier than it is. Trust me. Not easy at all. Maybe 'easy' is not exactly the right word for it, but you know what I mean.
Hya by the way.
still haven't got any responses. even with all my really subtle mentioning.
Whatever. Still glad you're reading my blog.
Watching another movie. Not a horror this time. Sort of a romantic detective. "Nancy Drew". The Version with Emma Roberts. Nice story, Quite stereotypic although. But it's not the kind of movie I'd go watch with my boyfriend, if I would have one anyway.
Sorry guys, but I'm already going to end here. I'm exhausted.
Tomorrow I'll make it up to you.
Byez
Wednesday, November 03, 2010
And we're back again
And we're bock again. Or at least I'm back again. Not so sure about you guys... No, just kidding, you guys are awesome. Otherwise I wouldn't take the effort to write this, don't you think? Don't know how it went with you, but I had a pretty good day, a bit lonely, but good.
Please!! Tell me how your day has been.
(Yes, I'm looking for some responses here, I know I'm not really subtle for the moment.)
A little review of my day...
It all started out... with working.
I bet you guys expected something more exciting but it gets better.
Struggled for life with a bunch of card board cupboards.
For the record: after a long and heavy fight I did win.
This afternoon I want to a city called "Wetteren" near Ghent for some medical checkup or something like that. Turns out I'm actually healthy. Hehe.
Driving back home I made a little pit stop at the shopping mall and bought the most lovely red blouse. Really gorgeous. But that's just my opinion. Reason: just wanted something to stun my peers with at my birthday. I'd like to say it's to blow away my boy, but sadly enough... I don't have a boyfriend. Yet. Anyway, I've actually got someone on my mind. But I'm just terrified to tell him. I'm really scared for history to repeat itself. Last time I told someone 'I like you' it went terribly wrong and I think I wouldn't survive it if my mental health went down like that again.
Done with being depressed. Need a happy subject. Music. Yes, that's it. I've got this song, an Italian one, and it's called "assolute amore". You can watch the clip with the song here. But I've got to say I'm only having the honour of putting the song on the clip and cutting the video to the time track of the song. The video itself is not mine. Sadly enough I don't remember who it made. I just found it on youtube a long time ago. I think the message is quite clear. And that's an understatement. Hope you guys like it too. If you have a few seconds just post your opinion here below and tomorrow I'll give you the results of the reactions.
Yes, I know, I've been asking a lot to react on stuff. The simple reason for it is the fact I want to interact with you guys, not just write these stories.
Please!! Tell me how your day has been.
(Yes, I'm looking for some responses here, I know I'm not really subtle for the moment.)
A little review of my day...
It all started out... with working.
I bet you guys expected something more exciting but it gets better.
Struggled for life with a bunch of card board cupboards.
For the record: after a long and heavy fight I did win.
This afternoon I want to a city called "Wetteren" near Ghent for some medical checkup or something like that. Turns out I'm actually healthy. Hehe.
Driving back home I made a little pit stop at the shopping mall and bought the most lovely red blouse. Really gorgeous. But that's just my opinion. Reason: just wanted something to stun my peers with at my birthday. I'd like to say it's to blow away my boy, but sadly enough... I don't have a boyfriend. Yet. Anyway, I've actually got someone on my mind. But I'm just terrified to tell him. I'm really scared for history to repeat itself. Last time I told someone 'I like you' it went terribly wrong and I think I wouldn't survive it if my mental health went down like that again.
Done with being depressed. Need a happy subject. Music. Yes, that's it. I've got this song, an Italian one, and it's called "assolute amore". You can watch the clip with the song here. But I've got to say I'm only having the honour of putting the song on the clip and cutting the video to the time track of the song. The video itself is not mine. Sadly enough I don't remember who it made. I just found it on youtube a long time ago. I think the message is quite clear. And that's an understatement. Hope you guys like it too. If you have a few seconds just post your opinion here below and tomorrow I'll give you the results of the reactions.
So... while this one is uploading I'm going to head to the next topic. Food. I love Chinese food. Or at least I love the stuff we call Chinese food. What's the difference? The stuff we, my family and I, used to call Chinese is actually Indonesian food. Apparently. Where's the difference? I have no idea. I like the food you can eat with chop sticks, that's all I care about.
I like to put them in my hair too. The chop sticks, not the food.
Next!
Took some test on facebook today...
"Which of the seven elements are you?"
Seven elements. Seven! Last time I checked there were no more than four elements. Fire, water, earth and air. Accompanied by the soul of course. What makes five elements if you count the soul in as element. Still.
It told me I'm the element of fire.
"You are passionate, and caring. You are easy to fall in love, and people tend to fall for you just the same. You are always warm to the touch. People feel safe in your arms, you have a temper, but you can get controll of it quickly. You are a fighter, and will stand up for your opinions. Your eyes are always full of passion and people tend to be drawn to them."
The result suits me quite well. The only thing that doesn't fit at all is that I fall in love that easely. And that people would fall for me like that isn't true either I believe.
I like people very quickly, yes, that's correct. And I'm quite naive too. But that doesn't make me fall in love that easily. Sometimes I think too quickly I'm in love, but I can get myself together just as quickly.
Got something...
this is the link of the test:
you guys go take the test and tell me what your element is. Then we can find out together what these 7 elements are.
Yes, I know, I've been asking a lot to react on stuff. The simple reason for it is the fact I want to interact with you guys, not just write these stories.
So... about stories. I'm going to finish the one of today.
May the stars shine bright and watch over you all.
By the way... if you watch close enough, maybe you'll find the star that shines just for you... Or the one that shines because of you.
Byez
Tuesday, November 02, 2010
the first working day is over
yes, you've read it very well. The first working day of this holiday week is over. And I can't feel my legs at his very moment. Wrong way of saying it... I do feel my legs, but all I feel is pain and heaviness. That's what you get from a day of dragging around crates of bear and water. Don't know what tomorrow will bring. It's living from day to day. Haha. Paper cuts and bruises all over my body. Clumsy me.
However, tomorrow's a new day. A,d I'll take what I get. I'm not a porselain doll, can take a lot.
Next topic will be horror. Again.
Despite the fact I'm quite terrified of most horrors, I've been watching one again this evening.
The day before yesterday: horror movie. Today; horror movie. What about the day after tomorrow?
Quite nice one this time. "Stay alive". Sophia Bush, Frankie Muniz and a girl that played in "Just my luck" are three of the main roles. Awesome.
Another movie I should promote is " Prince of Persia". Really beautiful.
Going to shut up about movies. For tonight at least.
Even thinking that I'm just going to shut up totally. Again: for tonight at least.
It's been a rough day and I'm convinced the bare details of a working day are really boring for you to read.
Short one today.
The creatures of the night have conquered my mind and body and I will be waiting till dawn arrives to meet my gaze again.
But I'll be back.
See you later.
However, tomorrow's a new day. A,d I'll take what I get. I'm not a porselain doll, can take a lot.
Next topic will be horror. Again.
The day before yesterday: horror movie. Today; horror movie. What about the day after tomorrow?
Quite nice one this time. "Stay alive". Sophia Bush, Frankie Muniz and a girl that played in "Just my luck" are three of the main roles. Awesome.
Another movie I should promote is " Prince of Persia". Really beautiful.
Going to shut up about movies. For tonight at least.
Even thinking that I'm just going to shut up totally. Again: for tonight at least.
It's been a rough day and I'm convinced the bare details of a working day are really boring for you to read.
Short one today.
The creatures of the night have conquered my mind and body and I will be waiting till dawn arrives to meet my gaze again.
But I'll be back.
See you later.
Monday, November 01, 2010
strange dreams are alive
Hey you all, second blog today and got a lot to talk about.
I’ve had the strangest dream tonight… I had got back some lab results and I was tested positive on leukemia. Because of that my parents kicked me out of the house. They gave me one week to pack my stuff and get out. It’s Monday so I have a lunch with Jake, a good friend of mine, scheduled at the university restaurant. In the main hall Alex, another very good friend, is trying to fix a laptop. I’m arriving there crying about the whole situation. When it all turns out I end up staying at his place until I need to go to the hospital for chemo and so long. Totally bonding with his family.
And then the day comes I need to go to the hospital. He’s there with me every single day…
And then the day comes I need to go to the hospital. He’s there with me every single day…
FYI: Jake and Alex are not the real names of the boys I mentioned earlier. I want to keep their privacy, but the boys in question will know it’s about them.
Now, you’ll all probably be asking yourself.
First of all: there’s nothing wrong with me. Didn’t had to go to the hospital, and I’m not having any kind of cancer for sure.
Second: the situation I described (the lunch appointment and the fact Alex was busy in the main hall of the university) really happened. I’m meeting up with Jake almost every Monday and last week Alex was actually sitting there trying to fix up a laptop.
Third: my parent wouldn’t kick me out because I’d have leukemia. Not ever.
And fourth: I’ve never even met Alex’ parents.
First of all: there’s nothing wrong with me. Didn’t had to go to the hospital, and I’m not having any kind of cancer for sure.
Second: the situation I described (the lunch appointment and the fact Alex was busy in the main hall of the university) really happened. I’m meeting up with Jake almost every Monday and last week Alex was actually sitting there trying to fix up a laptop.
Third: my parent wouldn’t kick me out because I’d have leukemia. Not ever.
And fourth: I’ve never even met Alex’ parents.
So anyone who can explain to me what my subconscious tries to tell me? The psychologist in me has temporarily abandoned me.
What brings me to my next subject. My super psycho sweet 16.What’s the link? Psycho-logist. My brains are making weird connections, I know.
Really freaky movie. I’m not into horror-movies, but I love this one and its sequel. It’s about a girl named Skye and her dad is a serial killer. On the Sweet 16 of one of the kids that bully Skye he turns up again at the rink an kills a bunch of kids. In the sequel she’s living with her mom, who had abandoned her when she was born, and her daughter. There’s a party at a closed bar exactly on the day Skye herself turns 16. And again, her dad turn up and kills a bunch of kids. Skye’s mom, who’s a total bitch by the way, and her best friend Derrek (left in the picture; the right one is Brigg, her boyfriend, kind of anyway) are getting killed also. And it end when…
No, I’m not going to tell and spoil it for everyone who might still watch the movies.
Usually I’m scared to death when I’m watching a horror-movie but this time I’ve got lucky.
Anyway back to reality. I’m working tomorrow, from 8 to 19 o’clock. A tough day. I'm a substitute for one of my friends at a supermarket. The best thing about starting tomorrow is the fact I don't even no what I'll be doing besides the desk. No notes about the isles I'm going to be responsible of, not even which desk I'm at. Being goofy. Probably everything is going to turn out alright.
Guessing it's time to round this up.
See you next time.
Byez
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